Why God Why

May 26, 2013 sweetpea2200
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So, a few weeks ago on my way to pickup my youngest munchkin, had a break through moment. I was praying, crying and begging God to fix me. I was so angry because I felt that every time, God did a little work on me and I felt things would be okay, I would back slide. And, most of all, I did not understand why God was not helping me get rid of my angry, negative attitude and why He was not filling the hole in my heart only He can fill. And, I do not want to be judgmental, assuming the worst in people, but be the sweet nice girl next door who loves everyone whole hearty and rarely assumes bad in people. I wanted disparately for God to fill my heart. In those moments of desperation, I realized that my angry was with God. I was shocked, I have no true reason to be angry with God, I have been greatly blessed with two wonderful munchkins, family, friends, good job, my new puppy, a roof over my head, pretty good health, etc. as soon as I spoke the words, I felt a weight lift off my chest. It was totally and completely amazing, and since those moments I have felt God. My heart is not completely fixed, but I have hope in my heart of hearts.


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  • 1. possesshispromises  |  May 26, 2013 at 7:55 PM

    It’s when we are desperate and understand that we are helpless that God breaks through. He wants us to realize that we can do nothing in His Kingdom without leaning on Him. Bless you and you walk the path that God has prepared for you from before the foundation of the world. Karen

    • 2. sweetpea2200  |  May 26, 2013 at 8:03 PM

      Thank you, yes, God is definitely strength in my weakness. šŸ™‚

  • 3. Jennifer  |  May 28, 2013 at 1:49 PM

    Don’t be discouraged. It is all a process. If you’ve ever tried to fix up a house, you know how it goes. You start to work on one thing and another surfaces. God fixes your heart bit by bit. He’s the master carpenter and knows what needs to be done. Some things have to be pulled out and rebuilt and it all takes time. Trust that He has the plans.

    • 4. sweetpea2200  |  June 1, 2013 at 11:51 PM

      šŸ™‚ Thank you, I am trying. I am blessed to be regaining my joy back.

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