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Bye-Bye TV

Bye-Bye TV

I have wanted to box up my television for at least a year, after reading several Amish romance books, and watched a documentary on this family who gave up all modern living.  It was very inspiring, but then I think what would to do without television.  We gave up cable almost four years ago for three reasons: one, I could not afford it, two, I was flipping through my DVR and all I saw was kids shows, and third, television is losing its morals quickly.  But, now, I even want to get rid of the television all together, because even without cable we spend way too much time watching TV.  My youngest child was walking around Home Depot saying, “I am a Vulcan, I have no emotions and I am from the plant Vulcan” while trying to make the hand signal.  I decided then that we watched too much television and definitely too much Star Trek.  Of course, we have watched all Star Trek The Next Generation (twice), Deep Space Nine, Voyager and recently Enterprise.  There are so many other things that we could be doing instead of sitting around watching television like riding bikes, board games, dinner at the table, laundry, etc.

We have been without the television about two weeks, and the evenings had been pretty easy with board games and bike riding.  This weekend was a little bit harder, we did spend sometime with at a friends, grilling, gardening and cleaning house but I did crave in and we watched a movie on the computer.  I still have not plugged the television back in, because I know we will be in the same spot again never turning the television off.  I believe my munchkins are having television withdraw also.  I took a nap today, and then I woke up my kids were watching Netflix on the computer.  I know, I started it then we watched that movie last night, but it just shows that we are addicted to television.  I fear what winter is going to be like without being able to get out of the house.

What are your thoughts on television?  The shows on television? How does television affect you and your family?


6 comments June 3, 2014


I believe my weekend was pretty productive.  I got my garden build , my farmhouse table are most done (drill ran out of my juice), worm compost setup, watched a season of Murder, She Wrote in and read two books.   I did not give out on my bike ride today, but I did get an amazing peaceful relaxing night ride last night.  It was better than jumping in the swimming pool on those 120 degree days, with the cool breeze against my skin.


12 by 2, me trying to maximum my cubic feet


About 70 worms went in garden, and the 230 in the compost bin.


Almost done, building my farmhouse table…..Thank you, Ana White

The best part to the day, teaching my kids about the worms.  At first, they were not going to touch them but then as I showed them digging into the garden they thought they were pretty cool.   They spent the rest of the day checked on the worms, it was funny.  I just hope that the birds do not eat my worms.


3 comments March 16, 2014

I Want Chick-Fil-A

I had the choice to go to Chick-Fil-A with a friend, tonight, but since it is not in the budget……….I had to decline, but it was so hard.  Since this is generally, how we hang out-at Chick-Fil-A with our munchkins on family night.   I so wanted to go, and in the interest of full disclosure I did cave at the end of the conversation, but thank the Lord they had already eaten.   It was a hard decision but an easy one too, because there is a light at the end of the tunnel and a purpose for being in the tunnel.  Since, we were able to get home early, we were able to go riding again this evening, hooray.  It is was still pretty awesome, but bit harder.  Yesterday, I was zooming, even had to circle back a few times, but today felt like running a race.  I was wheezing and couching with that burning in my chest, telling my body it is too out of shape to be doing this.  I could not believe it.  Then, I was in college, I use to ride ten miles a day, so what happened?  Life, I got married, was poor, sold bike, marriage fell apart, then had munchkins, but now we are going to get back in the swing of things…….super excited.  Well, my brain is.  If the only fitness ability, I pass out to my munchkins is a love of ride then I will call it good.  So, that wraps up the day.

Add a comment March 13, 2014

Bike Riding

This evening, I got to do something I have dreamed of doing since I was a kid.  I got to ride bikes with my family, and it was awesome.  As a kid growing up in my little town, there was this family that rode around town on their bikes and I always want to do that.  I tried a few years ago, to go riding out at the lake, but I soon discovered it is not a family friendly place.  My youngest screamed the whole time in the child’s seat, the oldest stopped every few inches to whine, no one slowed down and few people said hateful things.  I discovered that amateurs should not go to the lake for anything: biking, running, walking, etc. But, I am happy to say that we have a wonderful place to ride now, and starting tomorrow, I will be riding a few miles before work, now to find a safe way to ride to work.

Add a comment March 12, 2014

Shock of a Lifetime

Shock of a Lifetime

So, I few weeks ago, I got the shock of my lifetime, well, my life so far, and I am only 30.  I will not go into detail but then I first heard I could believe it.  I wanted to call this terrible person up and give her a good talking too.  Then, the shock and disbelief set in.  I can be pretty good at keeping my mouth shut, but I have limits until my children and family it threatened.  So, I got off the phone, many the two calls I needed too, and turned off all electronic devices and went to lunch with some old co-workers which I had planned two months ago.  I was excited that I did……No, GOD maintained most of my peace.  I know God is in control and will see my family through this.  I do know that it will cost me a very dear friend of mine and my youngest child their best friend, but God is in control.  I do not know what other valleys and mountains lay ahead, but I know God is going to be there every step of the way.  I know that this is only going to strength my relationship with God, because His strength will be the only thing to get me through it.

This week is VBS at my church and the theme is Facing Fear, Trusting God from 2 Timothy 1:7-For God has not given us a spirit of fearfulness, but one of power, love, and sound judgement.  That verses is what I need that day a few weeks ago hear, today and through the rest of this trial.

 Philippians 4:13 – I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

Romans 8:28 – And, we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.

Romans 12:14 – Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse.    I did not want to hear or see this one, but it showed up, so Lord, please, show me how to whole heartedly forgive this person and be a blessing.  Lord, please, keep my lip and teeth closed prevent my tongue from cursing.

3 comments August 6, 2013

Angry Day

Well, today, was an angry day. Last night, I got a few text unexpectedly and then this evening, I had to review the meeting from last week. I kept my peace last week, but I seem to be losing it this week. I know it is because I wear my feeling on my sleeve, and although I am far from perfect it gets under my skin then people refuse to make responsibility for their actions and wrong doing in the event. What makes me angry is that yes, I have made many mistakes, but I am not the only one. So, can we get over yourselves and work things out because I seem to be the only one trying? I know life is all about relationships, but right now, I wish I could lock myself away in a B&B with whirlpool tub, my Bible, notebook, and have solitude with God, or just go sit on a rock on top of Mt. Scott and decompress. Dr. Gary Smalley is so right in his book The DNA of Relationships

20130627-230139.jpg (this is a picture of a diagram from Dr. Gary Smalley’s book, The DNA of Relationship page Page 778, large print kindle version). because when you push my button and hurt me, I instantly want to hurt you much worse than you hurt me. I am excellent at hurting back because I do it on the sly, not that, that is something to be proud of as I am not. I am very grateful for this book that I first read ten or so years ago, then I was trying to save my marriage. I did not save my marriage but I saved myself and began to understand myself and have peace. I also can stop and evaluate why I am angry. Is it really that person, or that they pushed my button? So, I believe it is time to use the power of one and regain my peace. I will start with apologizing to my sister for snapping that her. I cannot worry about other people’s actions and reactions, but I can take control of my actions and reactions. I guess that is another thing, is that I want validation for taking control of my button (and not be a crazy woman, you know the kind I am talking about, because very few people have yet to see me truly angry), instead of condemnation. Now, I am feeling better already.

3 comments June 27, 2013

Keeping my mouth shut……

So,I am one to vent my frustrations to my family and close friends to both vent, see if my response was justified and to feel vindicated, but this is not the way to go about it. For one thing, it gives the person listening negative feelings toward the one your complaining about, which they will have to deal with, and second, tarnish they reputation, and the main reason, is it is unGodly. So, my selfishness to vent is adding to the frustration of my family and close friends and is separating me from God. Wow….putting it that way is eye opening. Monday, I received a call and email from two people that can push my button faster than anyone. I was so angry Monday evening that I called my dearest friend and sister who were both unavailable which was a God thing, I believe because it is like Joyce Meyer says go to the throne not the phone. So, what did I do, I went to the phone, and God said, nope not this time. So, when no one answered and I knew better than to reply to the email in angry, and journaled to God my frustrations, but I still did not feel better just empty. I still did not have peace about it, and then my friend returned my call, I let her about talk about her evening while waiting for my chance to jump in about why I had called. As my mouth was running over the story, God was talking to my heart saying I believe you know better, and I was like I just want to feel vindicated and my friend will vindicate me. Now, in hindsight, I should have just put it in God’s hands and been patient because God will give my vindication. So, today, I begged God to give me the strength to keep my mouth shut and to respond to the emails and call with the facts needed and nothing else.

Great minds talk about creative ideas, average minds talk with things, and small minds talk about people. Anonymous

I do not want to have a small mind for God, but a great mind for God.

2 comments June 12, 2013

Writing new chapters

I had a dream to bring my family together with my munchkins daddy’s and his family. I know it would be hard work as everyone worked through our differences and past hurts. I wanted to give my munchkins a united front of one family, not Mommy’s family and Daddy’s family but their family. I wanted them to see that regardless of our past mistakes/choices/differences that our family can work through it and move on and that family is family, and not always blood related. Two or three months ago, I shared this dream with my munchkins’ grandmother, I was told that I was an ex, an ex for a reason, and had no busy in their lives. I was shocked, saddened and deeply hurt, I thought we were semi-friends. I also questioned God, as to why He could give me a dream of my heart only for it to have no hope of coming true and to be crushed. Then, Friday, then the storm hit, we went over there, and I saw she was right I am an ex, for a reason and there was no room for me. I felt so out of place that I could not wait to get out of there. It was sad but yet freeing experience. Another chapter closed. Then, this morning then the storms rolled through around four am, the first clap of thunder, I did not wake expecting, my ex to say, “it’s okay, go back to sleep,” First time, in what five, six, seven years? I do not know what the future holds for our families or if they will ever be intwined or what relationship God is growing, but He is in control. So, then, I start to worry about the future or my dream of our families bending, I stop, breath, and say, “Be Still, and Know I am God” Ps 46:10.

5 comments June 4, 2013

Closing a chapter

In a previous post, I said that my Beloved would remain my Beloved then noted in this blog, however, one of my New Years goals was to let go of the past, present and future with him. During are up and down, on and off again relationship over the seven years, I have allowed my heart to grow cold, untrusting, and just assuming the worst, and this year has been about healing my heart and help guide my munchkins in healing their hearts. Yesterday morning, then he called, I was still short and my temper was quick to fare, and all I could think about was God, please, help me not be so angry and show him You. I do not know how successful I was, but then I hung up I realized he had crossed from being my Beloved to the ex. It was a freeing experience, and I could only smile. I have closed the door to this chapter of my life. I do not know what the future holds for our relationship, but I know that God is going to be walking the path with me.

Add a comment June 2, 2013

Loss *updated*

Prayers for a Loss

Today, while at church with my Beloved (not my Beloved anymore but that is how I am going to refer to him in this blog) received the call that his grandfather had passed away. I do not know all details of the funeral and viewing but I believe he had a stroke last year and has been suffering from *
*Alzheimer’s*. Please say a prayer for him and his family, I believe this is the third death in the family and he himself has loss three friends in addition. It is been a hard year, please keep them in your prayers.

As I was driving him to his parents house, I tried to be comforting but really are there words that express your grieve and sorrow for him and his family. Not in my experience, so, I just held his hand and reflected on my own loss of my grandfather and how he must be feeling and was there anything that was said that helped? I could not remember any words that helped so I just continued to hold his hand and pray for his and family’s comfort.

*Sorry, for the lack of spell check.

2 comments November 26, 2012


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